moderate emptiness, happens all the time

[hello_earth]

sound of beautiful explosions makes your hair rise and your heart shrink as you dream about french suburbia
blends with happiness watching your eyes smile marry me please nothing is ever as green as the pastime in the country
flirt with me make me happy, please, well nothing is as big as this kiss, i never knew so blue feeling, or rather,
i knew it all along and all the time and it has been always around and i just tried to forget it, or not see it,
but believe it i should in the end and this feeling is the feeling of loneliness, i know i am the one to blame.
safe as houses, terraced brick walled patches, watch their faces, they are friendly, but mute, i think. never tried
to talk to them. always talking to myself, so tired of it, so tired and disgusted, some day this should stop.
maybe i am finally tired of myself and my company - and i thought that i will always have something to do when
i'm alone - i am carrying this small backpack all the time that has all things i might possibly need when i'm
somewhere and i need to entertain myself, and it's getting pointless because i am bored of them things that are
in my bag too, now, and everybody starts to ask why i am carrying this big bag, and they do it more often than in
the past, but i don't think i can just leave and circulate the streets bagless, became a part of myself, this bag,
damn. beringed and bejewelled, handcuffed and unmoving, disillusioned hopeless nothing. top notch melancholy. lowest
prices in town. gentlemen, please come and please your ladies with these plastic frowns, scary masks, synthetic
tears, eye shadows that make your face look genuinely depressed. everything from the best material, one hundred
percent clean packed unused with full-time warranty, guarantee and everything. now. take. now is the time.
cause the time is nice. wreck blast ether sip naturally, fills your mouth no effort necessary feels crunchy and
moderately sweet it's not a pill it's a mouthcake felt like a sandcake had to spit it all right out. morning. anonymously. spent.

[locust]

ok

[Amnesiac.]

Εποχή ζευγαρώματος;

[Mitsmann]

Life it seems, will fade away
Drifting further every day
Getting lost within myself
Nothing matters no one else
I have lost the will to live
Simply nothing more to give
There is nothing more for me
Need the end to set me free

Things are not what they used to be
Missing one inside of me
Deathly lost, this can't be real
Cannot stand this hell I feel
Emptiness is filing me
To the point of agony
Growing darkness taking dawn
I was me, but now He's gone

No one but me can save myself, but it's too late
Now I can't think, think why I should even try
Yesterday seems as though it never existed
Death Greets me warm, now I will just say good-bye

[Amnesiac.]

How I needed you
How I grieve now you're gone
In my dreams I see you
I awake so alone

I know you didn't want to leave
Your heart yearned to stay
But the strength I always loved in you
Finally gave way

Somehow I knew you would leave me this way
Somehow I knew you could never, never stay
And in the early morning light
After a silent peaceful night
You took my heart away
And my being

In my dreams I can see you
I can tell you how I feel
In my dreams I can hold you
And it feels so real

I still feel the pain
I still feel your love
I still feel the pain
I still feel your love

And somehow I knew you could never, never stay
And somehow I knew you would leave me
And in the early morning light
After a silent peaceful night
You took my heart away
Oh I wish, I wish you could have stayed

I STILL FEEL THE PAIN ΜΩΡΗ ΠΟΥΤΑΝΑ

[Drumsick]

Όχι μάνες ρε μαλάκα.

[Magellan]

Where are you tonight?
Wild flower in starlit heaven
Still enchanted in flight
Obsessions lament to freedom

A timeless word, the meanings changed
But I'm still burning in your flames,
Incessant, lustral masquerade,
Unengaged, dim lit love didn't taste the same

And I still wonder if you ever wonder the same
And I wonder...

[chris_boss]

Εποχή ζευγαρώματος;

εποχή πάπιας

[FIXXXER]

You're tearing me apart
Crushing me inside
You used to lift me up
Now you get me down
If I
Was to walk away
From you my love
Could I laugh again ?
If I
Walk away from you
And leave my love
Could I laugh again ?
Again, again...

You're killing me again
Am I still in your head ?
You used to light me up
Now you shut me down
If I
Was to walk away
From you my love
Could I laugh again ?
If I
Walk away from you
And leave my love
Could I laugh again ?

I'm losing you again
Like eating me inside
I used to lift you up
Now I get you down

Without your love
You're tearing me apart
With you close by
You're crushing me inside
Without your love
You're tearing me apart
Without your love
I'm dazed in madness
Can't lose this sadness
I can't lose this sadness

Can't lose this sadness

You're tearing me apart
Crushing me inside
Without your love
(you used to lift me up)
You're crushing me inside
(now you get me down)
With you close by
I'm dazed in madness

Can't lose this sadness
It's riping me apart
It's tearing me apart
It's tearing me apart
I don't know why

It's riping me apart
It's tearing me apart
It's tearing me apart

I don't know why
I don't know why
I don't know why
I don't know why

Without your love
Without your love
Without your love
Without your love
It's tearing me apart

[Dal-]

Πρόζακ πήρες ;

[Chillin Villain]

What is love
Oh baby, don't hurt me
Don't hurt me no more
Oh, baby don't hurt me
Don't hurt me no more

What is love
Yeah

Oh, I don't know why you're not there
I give you my love, but you don't care
So what is right and what is wrong
Gimme a sign

What is love
Oh baby, don't hurt me
Don't hurt me no more
What is love
Oh baby, don't hurt me
Don't hurt me no more

Whoa whoa whoa, oooh oooh
Whoa whoa whoa, oooh oooh

Oh, I don't know, what can I do
What else can I say, it's up to you
I know we're one, just me and you
I can't go on

What is love
Oh baby, don't hurt me
Don't hurt me no more
What is love
Oh baby, don't hurt me
Don't hurt me no more

Whoa whoa whoa, oooh oooh
Whoa whoa whoa, oooh oooh

What is love, oooh, oooh, oooh
What is love, oooh, oooh, oooh

What is love
Oh baby, don't hurt me
Don't hurt me no more

Don't hurt me
Don't hurt me

I want no other, no other lover
This is your life, skase zwo
When we are together, I need you forever
Is it love

What is love
Oh baby, don't hurt me
Don't hurt me no more
What is love
Oh baby, don't hurt me
Don't hurt me no more (oooh, oooh)

What is love
Oh baby, don't hurt me
Don't hurt me no more
What is love
Oh baby, don't hurt me
Don't hurt me no more (oooh, oooh)

What is love?

[rat_poison]

[trololololololololololo]

[MoRmEnGiL]

[hello_earth]

σας ευχαριστώ παιδιά για όλη την ειληκρινή και θερμή συμπαράσταση στις εσωτερικές μου αναταράξεις και την πηγαία αυτή έκλυση χαόδους λεκτικής και ημι-υποσυνείδητης μάζας που είχα ανάγκη να πετάξω κάπου.

πρέπει να σημειώσω απλώς πως δεν αναφερόταν ακριβώς και μόνο στην αγάπη και τον έρωτα και τις επακόλουθες απογοητεύσεις, οι οποίες φυσικά και παίζουν κάποιο ρόλο σε όλα αυτά - ενδεχομένως οι απογοητεύσεις αυτές είναι μέρος ενός σχολείου δημιουργίας μιας ασπίδας, ή, αν θέλετε, χοντρής πέτσας που ο καθένας μας φοράει στις καθημερινές του περιπέτειες.

απλώς κάποιοι την έχουν πιο λεπτή. είναι φυσιολογικό όταν είμαστε πιο μικροί, και μπορεί να είναι αφύσικο και ίσως και κάπως ασθενικό όταν συνεχίζουμε να πληγωνόμαστε έτσι όντας πιο μεγάλοι. (σε όλους αυτούς αφιερώνω το εξαίσιο και πολύ σχετικό "Unversed In Love", ενα αλμπουμ του 1995 των συνθ γερμανών De/vision)

αλλά δεν ήταν ακριβώς αυτό το θέμα μου.

υπάρχει ενα άλλο πράγμα (τέλος πάντων υπερκαλύπτονται) που λέγεται γενικά "κοινωνικές δεξιότητες" ή ικανότητες και νομίζω το είχα πετύχει και σε ερωτηματολόγια αξιολογήσεων - εν πάσει περιπτώσει είναι κατι που υπάρχει και συγγενεύει κάπως με την "ασπίδα" που αναφέρω πιο πάνω.

όποιος δεν τις έχει, ή τις έχει αναπτυγμένες σε μικρό βαθμό (...) νομίζω πως την πάτησε, εκτός βέβαια μένει σε κανένα μικρό χωριό, έχει ενα χοράφι και δύο γουρούνια και - ενδεχομένως και οικογένεια κλπ. - ή τέλος πάντων δεν έχει και πολλές ανησυχίες γενικότερα, ούτε πολλές συναναστροφές με τον έξω κόσμο.

αναπόφευκτες βέβαια οι συγκρήσεις που μου έρχονται στο μυαλό με τις λαϊκές εκφράσεις που συνδέονται με το μέγεθος του αντρικού εξωτερικού γεννητικού οργάνου και των δύο στρογγυλών οργανίσκων που βρίσκονται ακριβώς κάτω απο αυτό.

ενστικτοδώς δηλαδή μη έχοντας αυτές τις κοινωνικές δεξιότητες.....

...

σας αφήνω να τελειώσετε εσείς γιατί έμεινα απο χρόνο

it's like a game of chess which quickly bores me and without knowing how to play anyway, i make moves deliberately without much thinking